so i went to the dentist yesterday....
really hate going to the dentist...
had aa really traumatic experience 4 years ago... and after that everything is scary...
ko bayangkan die inject aku 8 kali... sebab die nak cabut gigi aku..
gigi patah akar tertinggal kat dalam.. and die nak korek akar guna playar..
siap kena jahit semua.... seriusly, i counted bapa kali die inject...

anyways.... since this decay is visible when i talk.. had to go lah...
i was procrastinating a lot..
but then i had to brace myself to do it...
if i cant handle a simple dental procedure... camne la nak give birth...
semalaman aku tak tido thinking about the blood test yg inevitably will come...
nak tau Rhesus positive or not.. blood type etc....
thats a lotta blood to take from me... arghhhh....
cant sleep...
but conclusion from it all.... have to go through it la...
lepas aku gi threading... aku rase sakit threading ni lagi sakit dari any injections aku rase...
(threading = yanking hairs by the roots from upper lips / facial area)...
cuma sebab tak penetrate kulit, aku tak cuak.... but jauh lebeh sakit dari injection....
so i guess it is all really in my mind....
i dont think im scared of the pain of injection...
im put off by the fact there is a long needle penetrating the skin into layers of tissue/muscle...
and involves blood.....basically invasive aa...

anyways, aku pegi gak dentist.. took 5 mins (not kidding) coz no one there and sebab aku tak procrastinate
teruk sangat, the decay was small.... so nyilu sket... but tak sakit...and everything is A okay again...

aku rase .. the right frame of mind, and steely determination is the only thing that will get me through all this
needle procedures.. (im not even thinking bout labour rite now okay....)