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next week gonna go on my 4th and final babymoon.. local jek... langkawi..
but excited!

hongkong - at 2 months
london - at 3 months
tokyo - at nearly cukup 7 months
langkawi - at 7 months

one of the vids where babe is awake...
rase reassured.....
memula die senyap saja....

AKU COPY PASTE JE... CEK SENDIRI BETUL KE IDAK

1) Dua rakaat solat wanita hamil lebih baik dari 80 rakaat solat wanita yg tidak hamil.

2) Wanita yg hamil dapat pahala puasa di siang hari dan pahala ibadat di malam hari.

3) Wanita yg bersalin dpt pahala 70 tahun soat dan puasa serta setiap kesakitan pada satu uratnya, Allah SWT bagi satu pahala haji.

4) Sekiranya wanita meninggal dunia dm masa 40 hari selepas bersalin, di kira mati syahid.

5) Wanita yg memberi minum susu badannya kpd anaknya akan dpt satu pahala dt tiap titik susu yg diberikannya.

6) Wanita yg memberi minum susu badannya kpd anaknya yg menangis, maka Allah SWT beri dia pahala satu tahun solat dan puasa.

7) Wanita yg menyusukan anaknya sehingga cukup tempoh 2 tahun setengah, maka malaikat di langit akan khabarkan berita bahawa syurga wajib baginya.

8) Seorang ibu yg menghabiskan masa malamnya dengan tidur yg x selesa, nyenyak kerana menjaga anaknya yg sakit, mendapat pahala seperti membebaskan 20 org hamba.

9) Wanita yg tidak cukup tidur pada malam hari kerana menjaga anaknya yg sakit akan di ampunkan oleh Allah SWT akan seluruh dosanya dan bila die hiburkan hati anaknya, Allah SWT beri dia 12 tahun pahala ibadat.


p/s : Bertuahnya jadi perempuankan?????? renungkan...

LABOR DAY STORY PART I
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sempena count down to amir's first birthday...
akhirnye I'm writing bout my birth story...
bak kata kak eila... ni adalah anniversary hari aku melahirkan amir..
anyways... ni gamba melawat baby kak eila... gabriel umairah.. gabby
at this time..7.5 months pregnant...
I have 1.5 months to go.. coz gabby lahir 2 may 2008...



Jumaat (13 June 2008)
Aku bercuti annual leave ke in-lieu leave....
Aku gi sale yang kat 3K....bersesak-sesak...
Pastu malas nak lalu jem, I parked jauh.. so panjat la aku jejantas tu..
I bought some Anna Sui cosmetics...
pastu gy pyramid... konon nak jumpa ngn adik aku.. tapi die nak gi main futsal lak kat USJ..so aku jalan sorang...

Weekend Sabtu and Ahad... (14-15 June 2008)
Aku gi sale Xixili.... fuh sesak nak mampos...
my belly is not an excuse for people to be sorry for me I guess..
Pastu.. tengah hari till petang I went to watch rafiq main volleyball..
hari sukan PWC i think..
Pastu gi midvalley for my exercise.. I walk in malls as my exercise...

Ahad, aku gi sale xixili tu balik ahahahha...
sebab nak beli lagi Bra yg best tu...bought 5-6 of the same ones..
(which till now I cant wear coz now Im all about nursing bra without wire..)
pastu gi shopping at ikea/curve area..



Isnin (16 June 2008)

Aku tak buat ape.. aku masih guna annual leave, esok baru aku start maternity leave..start gak la cuti bersalin, walaupun due date 21st...
semua org kecoh suh aku cuti.. takut terberanak kat opis kot...
(actually doktor dah bagi aku MC sejak 2 weeks ago..
tapi cam tak perlu je amek... )
aku dok rumah... main internet.. tengok TV....
dari pagi sampai kemalam... bosan nak mampos..
esok aku nak gi shopping la..
then kul 9 malam... felt this contractions....
ape bezanye with braxton hicks?
when the time comes, u'll know it....

and I knew... tapi takut aku silap...
so I timed it... memula 45 mins apart...
makin lama makin cepat..
rafiq dah terbongkang tido atas katil...
aku malas nak kacau.... I'll wake him bila dah masa...
so aku pun setiap kali contractions berguling2 aa atas katil menahan...
rafiq masih tak sedar diri... hampeh...
sometimes bila tak tahan, aku gi mandi...
sambil-sambil tu... aku gi pack barang.... and main my Nintendo DS...
game ape ek nama die...7 wonders of egypt..? camtu la.. matching game...
best gile...
anyways, aku pun terseksa la sendiri sensorang sepanjang malam..
4-5 kali gak aku gi mandi..
Enema-ed myself 2 times.. nak elakkan terberak on the table...
I thought it was enough....


Selasa (17 June 2008)

doktor kata when it's 10 mins apart, then baru gi hospital...
tapi at 15 mins apart, aku dah tak tahan dok umah...
masa ni umah aku takde aircond... and it was freaking hot and I was sweating everytime contractions...
at least kat spital ade aircond kan.... kejut la rafiq....
so we went to SJMC... at 5.00am...
the nurse check opening dah 3cm.. yep in labour... (aku sebnanye cuak diorang kata, ni bukan labor lagi lah)
then they enema-ed me.. industrial size enema....
and aku gi jamban.. ade lagi banyak saki baki crap in me...
that's one helluva enema..



they they strapped me in... monitor blood pressure, monitor perut....
sambungkan kat graph2 tu...
then they IV-ed me..... antibiotics coz I was positive for strep B....
I hate needles.. takutnye masa nak masukkan jarum kat tangan tu..
and then to leave it the for days lak tu.... arghh the horror....
sambil-sambil tu... aku masih contractions every 10-13 mins...
sakitnye...... they asked whether I wanted epidural...
aku tanye can take now ke? they say can...
aku lak takut jarum epidural tu je...
fikir gak la 2-3 kali....
then sebab contractions tak tahan... aku cakap i want it !!..



then bila tunggu anethetisian datang.. and contractions abis... fikir lagi...
then 30 minit baru die sampai kot.... berpeluh2 dah aku masa ni...
chinese lady.. die bagi la aku lecture on possible side effects etc etc...
tapi aku tgh contractions so kuar telinga kiri... I want it now damn it....
then bila die nak buat.. die suruh go into fetal position...
aku pun merengkok la... mengigil2 aku.....takutnye jarum tu... die kata jangan gerak.. tapi aku mengigil..
nurse semua pegang aku.. rafiq pun pegang..
and at the first prick I did move.. then dr stop, die kata dok diam-diam...
fuhh tuhan jelah tau betapa susahnye nak achieve that diamness...
ngn gigil... ngn tahan contractions lagi.... die buat masa aku tak contract.. tapi then slow sgt hindered by my shaking...
tengah2 tu aku contract.... adeh.... lagi susah nak dok senyap...
after dah berjaya.... fuhh beza langit dan bumi.... i feel nothing....



not contractions at alll .. heavennyeerr...
then the waiting starts...time ni kul 6 kot....
kenkadang nurse masuk to pee-me.... masukkan catheder and kuarkan pee aku..
masa die buat tu, aku tak rase ape... aku ingat citer horor kak ina..
die kata nyilu and pedih.... ..thank you happydural...
nurse tu tekan2.. and got a bowful of my pee... mane datang air banyak ni....
ooo dari IV aku la... by the way, last time I ate was at 8 pm monday........
and last time I slept was sunday to monday morning....
so at 8 am selasa morning aku dah tak makan 12 jam and tak tido 24 jam...



sambil2 tunggu terbukak 10cm.. aku cuba nak tido... tapi takleh sgt ...
tak selesa... dedua kaki aku limp....
so rase pelik je....
dr. kata jangan pakai handphone or devices near the machines kat perut tu..
tapi after 1-2 hours of boredom.. aku gi main gak nintendo DS aku..

and so we wait



to be continued...

the baby is outtttt.....

date: 17 june 2008 @ 19:18pm (combination my birthday & rafiq 10 & 7)
gender: boy (obviously)....
weight: 3.44 kilos (berat nyeerr)
length : 50.5 cm (gile la... 1/2 meter... but normal aa tu)
delivery: normal with epidural and vaccum (pain-a-phobic, and tak fit to push)
cuteness level: 10!! (my biased judgement)...
similarity to parents: 80% me (hence the biased judgement)
health: none apparent (no jaundice to date)
food of choice: fresh boobs juice / squeezed boobs juice (formula gives such a lot, smelly, dark poopies....i've tried it, once.....)
shoutout: thank you to my dear husband who was so supportive and encouraging... could NOT have done it without you....(and the epi and vaccum, apparently... feel like such a failure...)

the ticker has spoken.. again... gile right on the money..!


the "runs"? meaning diarheaa??
i was just complaining to rafiq.... i can only poop diarheaa-ially...
i guess there is no space for solid poop to waltz its way out of my body...


and i am fully engaged... locked and loaded...
aku rase cam perasaan lebam je bawah tu...
the doc gave me 1 week (5 days) MC this week....
and today, i'm still at work... just wanna tie up some loose ends...
maybe if finish... tomorrow aku nak ber-MC till jumaat...
(actually guna MC 3 hari je, selasa till khamis... coz jumaat i already applied for in-lieu leave - befday agung)....


and next week, 16th.. aku nak start amek maternity leave...
malas aa nak berjalan2 dengan perasaan vagina yang beaten and bruised....
not to mention i can only get 3-4 hours of sleep every night....
why does it hurt even more at night? i feel like contraction selalu time malam...
maybe coz its sunyi and sepi and i can concentrate more on the pain....
or contraction likes to occur while laying down...
i know the baby looooooves to kick while im laying down...


dr suruh aku keep fetal kick chart....
from 9 am till 5 pm.... kira kicking/turning/grazing motion of the baby..
kalau cukup 10.... catat time kul berapa.. and takyah count....
kalau tak cukup, pi spital....


sunday - i woke up at 9.15 ..... 9.35 already ten movements...
i told you he likes to kick while im laying down... or trying to sleep...

monday - 9.30 also already more than ten.... (counted the ones yg aku perasaan, too busy trying to multitask.. breakfast and bace work email)....

what if from 9.30 am till 8 am next morning no movement...? pelik la aku cara pengiraan ni... they should say ensure 2-3 kicks every hour.... or every 2 hours....


p/s: the cot is already assembled.... come out la already.... tolong kuar masa weekdays yer.... weekend ade extra charges pulak...

it's JUNE!!!!!...

huh cant wait.... it's like knowing something will happen..
and anticipating is torture!!!..

but I've heard 1st time mom can take up to 42 weeks... baru deliver...
hmmm lambatnyee..... that might push it into July!!.....

but I dont see any signs of labor...
no contraction, no back pain, no engagement...
i feel fine.... i feel great .... i feel better than last month infact.... i feel more energetic.... (maybe aku dah terbiasa with all these inconvinience of being heavy and having to pee all the time... that i just dont sweat it anymore)....


so looks kinda unlikely to have an early birth.. even if the baby is so fatty and chubby..... i dunno.... i'm praying for a miracle... aku dah takde mood nak buat kerja....

and he is kicking up a storm in there.... im not surprised if im black and blue inside... sape la cakap movement baby akan makin sikit sebab tak cukup ruang.... maybe aku tinggi, banyak lagi ruang die nak pusing sana sinih.... setiap hari rafiq cakap... "keluarla... keluarlaa... keluarla......"

damn, that ticker always seems to read my mind.....

bila dr gitau berat baby aku berapa.... (long story below)
the first thing aku nak gitau rafiq is... we have got to get this baby out ASAP....
tapi tak tercakap aku depan doktor tu...


anyways... last 2 week, the weight of the baby is 2.2 kilos...
lepas 2 week, checked tadi....berat aku naik 2 kilos... (which i still believe is water weight).... the weight of the baby is 3.2kg!!


biar betul kau.... silap2 ceasarian, abis duit ...... (we dah put aside money dah for ceasarian, but i prefer not to spend it this way)....
tapi aku rase ukuran dr tadi tu a bit overestimating lah..... cara die select border of the crosssection kat ultrasound tu cam off sket.....
takkan la 1st baby ceasar..... leceh la VBAC pasni...


also, takkan 2 minggu naik 1 kilo.... gilooo.... but he was so chubby/montel.... lama gak dr tu scan kat muka sebab die kata montelnyerrrr.... sampai baby tu tensen and flipped over to menyorok...... hahahha lawakk...... dapat tgk die gerak2 to flip....lepas kitorang tak nampak muka die, die dok diam je walaupun poked with the ultrasound transmitter...


dear baby.... dont suckkkk all of my nutrients and food... give some to me.....
ko tu dah terlebeh nourishedd..... chubbyyyyy

thank you for behaving dear baby....
good nite sleep.... only twice peeing action....

im so pissed.... too many limitation on what I can/cannot do....
feels like a freakin' prison....

bila keje, aku nak balik nak enjoy/rest...
balik umah, not that i can rest or enjoy (too freakin uncomfortable/havta save money for baby/no energy to window shop for long hours).... so cant wait to go to work...

cycle of one misery after another.....

okay.. i got up to pee like 8 times last night....
8 freakin' times....
campo plak ngn budak ni asik berguling2 dalam perut... took time to get the position of sleep, pastu after 5 mins.. nak terkencing balik....
even as i am writing right now, he turning and kicking (which is at 9 am in the morning)....
dunno wattahell is happening in there...
the slightest move pun buat aku rase nak terkencing...
i tot it was supposed to get more sempit in there, and less kicking would occur after 30 weeks.... ni makin menjadik2 je aku rase ni...

nak aje aku cubit suruh dok diam... geram aku....
bukan geram kecomelan... geram sakit hati....
nak aje give him to rafiq.. and let me get out of the house for a breather..... but still cant be seperated rite now...

campo pulak ngn isnin aritu aku MC coz snapped my back due to the fact ade jamban cangkung je kat rumah... and my big belly menyusahkan aku utk reach to wipe my ass... so i pulled a muscle.....

I was rendered useless for 1 day of work... tak penah2 lagi la aku MC sebab pregnant.... but it is the one day that I was supposed to attend this B737 pressurization course with Boeing ..... (which turned out to be a 2 day course... but i didnt know coz i missed the first day)...... i really wanted to go.. at 5-6 am pun aku makan pain killer to see if i could make it to work (which I couldnt...surrender aku last2, and took the MC)

I am not complaining and im not saying i wish i wasnt pregnant...
but i cant wait for it to be over....
also im pissed with all those women yg bila jumpa aku...
"eii bestnye pregnant"... "rindunye perasaan being pregnant".... "isnt it the greatest"..... dengan akak² cafeteria pun tengok aku with longing faces.... rindu saat2 pregnant katanye.... stop saying crap to my face..... it is all freakin bullshit..... being pregnant is over-rated..... 3rd tri is so uncomfortable... and im still not at full size.... all i wanna do is work out... but i cant.... cant sleep on my belly... cant sleep on my back (takleh nafas).. cant sleep on my sides too long, sakit bahu....now cant even sleep period! coz this hopped-up baby is excited about something (dunno what it is).... and wont sleep at all..... shit, I am pissed......


can't wait for it to be over.... at least then, I can rotate with rafiq about who's not sleeping that night....

By pregnancy week 33 many women start experiencing mild swelling or edema. This pattern often remains as you continue your pregnancy week by week. Some women find that swelling is worse during warm weather or in hot climates. If you are experiencing your third trimester in the middle of summer more kudos to you! You are probably very warm and quite bloated. Just be sure to drink plenty of water to keep your body as hydrated as possible. This will help with swelling and improve your comfort.

To accommodate you and your baby's growing needs, your blood volume has increased 40 to 50 percent since you got pregnant. With your uterus pushing up near your diaphragm and crowding your stomach, the consequences may be shortness of breath and heartburn. To help relieve your discomfort, try sleeping propped up with pillows and eating smaller meals more often.

You may have lower-back pain as your pregnancy advances. If you do, let your caregiver know right away, particularly if you haven't had back pain before, since it can be a sign of preterm labor.

Assuming it's not preterm labor that's ailing you, you can probably blame your growing uterus and hormonal changes for your aching back. Your expanding uterus shifts your center of gravity and stretches out and weakens your abdominal muscles, changing your posture and putting a strain on your back. Hormonal changes in pregnancy loosen your joints and the ligaments that attach your pelvic bones to your spine. This can make you feel less stable and cause pain when you walk, stand, sit for long periods, roll over in bed, get out of a low chair or the tub, bend, or lift things.

As for the ongoing joys of being in your third trimester: your not-so-fun symptoms are just intensifying this week, so it might not hurt to slow down a bit and focus on yourself. If you’re feeling extra fatigued, you’ve probably joined the sleeping shouldn’t be this tough when I’m this tired club, especially if you’re experiencing a lot of back pain and general discomfort. If you’ve been pushing the exercise thing, then this is the time perhaps to cut down on the physical activities and focus more on getting proper sleep (if this means buying a pregnancy pillow, then do it!).

Oh and all that moodiness? Just go with the flow emotionally. This doesn't mean letting the hormones win and becoming a complete psychotic. Instead, feel the feelings, but know that the drama you’re feeling is largely a result of increased adrenaline thanks indirectly to hormonal swings—not because things really are that dramatic and merit adult temper tantrums. The clincher symptom for this week: it’s highly likely your libido has gone on sabbatical. This, as far as we’re concerned, is perfectly natural in your condition.

berdasarkan buku..... nak mencecah 7 bulan... huahuahuaaa....
tak percaya plak aku....


Month 1 = Weeks 1-4
Month 2 = Weeks 5-8
Month 3 = Weeks 9-13
Month 4 = Weeks 14-17
Month 5 = Weeks 18-21
Month 6 = Weeks 22-26
Month 7 = Weeks 27-30
Month 8 = Weeks 31-35
Month 9 = Weeks 36-40

ultrasound of the baby's face...

another doc's visit yesterday.....
susah hati jugak aku, coz gi balik kedah... sat for hours and hours sebab jam... then gi hatyai, too much walking and sitting up...
seriously sakit badan.. the hotel bed was so keras...
rase cam kena bantai satu badan...
gegaran taxi dan van dan kerete seriusly didnt help too...
seb baik aku rase baby ni dah biasa bergegar, tido nyenyak je bila aku bergegar...mungkin aku terpaksa beli vibrating chair lepas dah lahir....

campo ngn panas and penat and aircond... aku terus demam...
then aku gi makan panadol actifast 2 bijik 1000mg... campo plak diphenhydramine.... all at recommended dosage la... but usually aku amek 1/2 dosage..then tahan sket aa sakit.... tapi dah kronik sgt, aku amek dosage yg direkomend.. tapi still merana gak aa....

then baby tu terus tak gerak2 sangat hari isnin (the day to visit doc..)
aku cuak gak.. tapi mungkin die pun terkena effek ubat yg cause drowsiness tu kot... takpon kebetulan die penat nak tido...

anyways... everything was fine.. summary below

time done: 25 weeks, 1 day
BPD (head): 27 weeks, 3 days
FL (kaki): 28 weeks, 2 days
AC (abdominal circumference): 26 weeks, 4 days
Weight: 1.08kg

rumusan aku and rafiq..... baby ni dah 2 minggu lagi advance dari sepatutnye (compare 25weeks with BPD measurement)... and tinggi coz kaki die dah ukuran 28 weeks... and kurus coz berat die (based on AC).. is 26 weeks, 4 days.. hahahahha... memandai je but papepun... size-wise, now dah 2 weeks ahead ....

doc kata aku swelling.. ala-ala edema... tapi blood pressure okay...
so not a sign of pre-eclampsia... but weight naik la....
but its water weight, who cares..
and re-confirm again, its a boy...
sesi kali ni die tak aktif sgt....
cos kitorang gi siang.... bila visit doc malam, actif gile...
atau pun die still lalok dari segala pills yg aku makan..huhuh
tapi malam semalam die dah aktif balik.. so okayla tu...

good to have somewhat an indication that the baby is okay in there...
dulu, aku cam selalu anxious... okay ke tak ni... dahla pemakanan aku crap... mungkin toxic ke ape... i take panadol, clindamycin, diphenhydramine yg org kata patutnye tak jejaskan baby... but who knows rite?..... ade la perasaan tak sedap hati gak....

skang ni bila die gerak2.... cam lega je....
dulu rase poking-poking je...
skang rase cam in waves.. cam boleh rase pergerakan dari kiri ke kanan...
kira cam dpt rase lebeh lama dari 1 saat aa... feels weird...
die suka gerak time aku baring tgk TV....
aku pun suka cucuk2 die time tu.... interactive belly...

kenkadang masa aku stress buat keje... die gerak gak...
aku sebok tgh dengar critical instructions from bos-bos aku tentang what todo.... time tu la die nak buat gymnastics....grukgrakgrukgrak perut... distracting jugak...

some people gi klinik kerajaan...
org ckp aku gi klinik dr delilah tu mahal...
memang la mahal kalau ko nak bandingkan ngn free treatments...

tapi first of all, kena amek cuti nak pi klinik kerajaan...
and sehari cuti aku berharga about RM70-80.....
tak amek kira cuti rafiq.... rugi kalau die tak ikut... nak tgk ultrasound sumer... so kalau dedua dok amek cuti nak pi klinik... dah rugi RM150

pastu sebenarnye RM100+ is quite okay la for a visit
coz dpt ultrasound everytime (gi klinik tak dpt, except certain times) and treatment gynea yg berreputasi... sebab kalau nak cakap aku tak berduit, ade je duit...

takkan RM150 (campo ubat) sebulan takleh nak spare dari 2 org yg bergaji RM3000+ sorang..... sedangkan gi makan kat chillis/tgi/buat facial/beli mekap/beli tudung-kain perbagai warna/gi gym semua boleh spend that much? takkan utk baby berkira? memula aku stress jugak sebab kena kuar duit extra untuk mende yg aku tak nampak hasil yg tangiable... mende yg aku boleh pegang/guna/tatap... rase RM150 ilang camtu je...

tapi dengan adenye ultrasound time aku cek 6 weeks tu la... dr. dapat check aku ade bleeding sket.. and cecepat leh prescribe progesterone pills... kalu gi klinik kerajaan, die tak buat ultrasound except time2 yg sepatutnye.. so untuk aku, memang nasib baik sangat la aku gi jumpa dr delilah.... awal2 tu aku dah susah hati kena kuarkan RM150+..... tapi sebab dpt elakkan tragedi.... memang rase berbaloi... and bila dah set minda untuk allocate that much each for doctor's visit... okayla.. sebab dah set aside.. tak rase cam unexpected expenditure....

so for me... not having to take leave, able to see my baby each month, the security of knowing that you are in good and reliable hands.... is definately worth RM150....

but to each his/her own.... aku sebab ade bleeding tu, aku nak extra security... extra rase selamat.. tanak worry...

feels funny when he hiccups... ticklish...

my favourite pastime at 10pm (sbb rafiq dah tido, so takde layanan... hmm, kalau die tak tido pun takde layanan gak :P ... and also sebab tv takde citer best dah) is... balancing my nintendo DS or my astro remote control on top of my belly... and see the baby kick it off .. i get a kick outta watching that (a pun!)

by the way... the babe (in actual size/reality) is 1 week ahead from the tickers info...