it's JUNE!!!!!...

huh cant wait.... it's like knowing something will happen..
and anticipating is torture!!!..

but I've heard 1st time mom can take up to 42 weeks... baru deliver...
hmmm lambatnyee..... that might push it into July!!.....

but I dont see any signs of labor...
no contraction, no back pain, no engagement...
i feel fine.... i feel great .... i feel better than last month infact.... i feel more energetic.... (maybe aku dah terbiasa with all these inconvinience of being heavy and having to pee all the time... that i just dont sweat it anymore)....


so looks kinda unlikely to have an early birth.. even if the baby is so fatty and chubby..... i dunno.... i'm praying for a miracle... aku dah takde mood nak buat kerja....

and he is kicking up a storm in there.... im not surprised if im black and blue inside... sape la cakap movement baby akan makin sikit sebab tak cukup ruang.... maybe aku tinggi, banyak lagi ruang die nak pusing sana sinih.... setiap hari rafiq cakap... "keluarla... keluarlaa... keluarla......"

damn, that ticker always seems to read my mind.....

bila dr gitau berat baby aku berapa.... (long story below)
the first thing aku nak gitau rafiq is... we have got to get this baby out ASAP....
tapi tak tercakap aku depan doktor tu...


anyways... last 2 week, the weight of the baby is 2.2 kilos...
lepas 2 week, checked tadi....berat aku naik 2 kilos... (which i still believe is water weight).... the weight of the baby is 3.2kg!!


biar betul kau.... silap2 ceasarian, abis duit ...... (we dah put aside money dah for ceasarian, but i prefer not to spend it this way)....
tapi aku rase ukuran dr tadi tu a bit overestimating lah..... cara die select border of the crosssection kat ultrasound tu cam off sket.....
takkan la 1st baby ceasar..... leceh la VBAC pasni...


also, takkan 2 minggu naik 1 kilo.... gilooo.... but he was so chubby/montel.... lama gak dr tu scan kat muka sebab die kata montelnyerrrr.... sampai baby tu tensen and flipped over to menyorok...... hahahha lawakk...... dapat tgk die gerak2 to flip....lepas kitorang tak nampak muka die, die dok diam je walaupun poked with the ultrasound transmitter...


dear baby.... dont suckkkk all of my nutrients and food... give some to me.....
ko tu dah terlebeh nourishedd..... chubbyyyyy

thank you for behaving dear baby....
good nite sleep.... only twice peeing action....

im so pissed.... too many limitation on what I can/cannot do....
feels like a freakin' prison....

bila keje, aku nak balik nak enjoy/rest...
balik umah, not that i can rest or enjoy (too freakin uncomfortable/havta save money for baby/no energy to window shop for long hours).... so cant wait to go to work...

cycle of one misery after another.....

okay.. i got up to pee like 8 times last night....
8 freakin' times....
campo plak ngn budak ni asik berguling2 dalam perut... took time to get the position of sleep, pastu after 5 mins.. nak terkencing balik....
even as i am writing right now, he turning and kicking (which is at 9 am in the morning)....
dunno wattahell is happening in there...
the slightest move pun buat aku rase nak terkencing...
i tot it was supposed to get more sempit in there, and less kicking would occur after 30 weeks.... ni makin menjadik2 je aku rase ni...

nak aje aku cubit suruh dok diam... geram aku....
bukan geram kecomelan... geram sakit hati....
nak aje give him to rafiq.. and let me get out of the house for a breather..... but still cant be seperated rite now...

campo pulak ngn isnin aritu aku MC coz snapped my back due to the fact ade jamban cangkung je kat rumah... and my big belly menyusahkan aku utk reach to wipe my ass... so i pulled a muscle.....

I was rendered useless for 1 day of work... tak penah2 lagi la aku MC sebab pregnant.... but it is the one day that I was supposed to attend this B737 pressurization course with Boeing ..... (which turned out to be a 2 day course... but i didnt know coz i missed the first day)...... i really wanted to go.. at 5-6 am pun aku makan pain killer to see if i could make it to work (which I couldnt...surrender aku last2, and took the MC)

I am not complaining and im not saying i wish i wasnt pregnant...
but i cant wait for it to be over....
also im pissed with all those women yg bila jumpa aku...
"eii bestnye pregnant"... "rindunye perasaan being pregnant".... "isnt it the greatest"..... dengan akak² cafeteria pun tengok aku with longing faces.... rindu saat2 pregnant katanye.... stop saying crap to my face..... it is all freakin bullshit..... being pregnant is over-rated..... 3rd tri is so uncomfortable... and im still not at full size.... all i wanna do is work out... but i cant.... cant sleep on my belly... cant sleep on my back (takleh nafas).. cant sleep on my sides too long, sakit bahu....now cant even sleep period! coz this hopped-up baby is excited about something (dunno what it is).... and wont sleep at all..... shit, I am pissed......


can't wait for it to be over.... at least then, I can rotate with rafiq about who's not sleeping that night....

By pregnancy week 33 many women start experiencing mild swelling or edema. This pattern often remains as you continue your pregnancy week by week. Some women find that swelling is worse during warm weather or in hot climates. If you are experiencing your third trimester in the middle of summer more kudos to you! You are probably very warm and quite bloated. Just be sure to drink plenty of water to keep your body as hydrated as possible. This will help with swelling and improve your comfort.

To accommodate you and your baby's growing needs, your blood volume has increased 40 to 50 percent since you got pregnant. With your uterus pushing up near your diaphragm and crowding your stomach, the consequences may be shortness of breath and heartburn. To help relieve your discomfort, try sleeping propped up with pillows and eating smaller meals more often.

You may have lower-back pain as your pregnancy advances. If you do, let your caregiver know right away, particularly if you haven't had back pain before, since it can be a sign of preterm labor.

Assuming it's not preterm labor that's ailing you, you can probably blame your growing uterus and hormonal changes for your aching back. Your expanding uterus shifts your center of gravity and stretches out and weakens your abdominal muscles, changing your posture and putting a strain on your back. Hormonal changes in pregnancy loosen your joints and the ligaments that attach your pelvic bones to your spine. This can make you feel less stable and cause pain when you walk, stand, sit for long periods, roll over in bed, get out of a low chair or the tub, bend, or lift things.

As for the ongoing joys of being in your third trimester: your not-so-fun symptoms are just intensifying this week, so it might not hurt to slow down a bit and focus on yourself. If you’re feeling extra fatigued, you’ve probably joined the sleeping shouldn’t be this tough when I’m this tired club, especially if you’re experiencing a lot of back pain and general discomfort. If you’ve been pushing the exercise thing, then this is the time perhaps to cut down on the physical activities and focus more on getting proper sleep (if this means buying a pregnancy pillow, then do it!).

Oh and all that moodiness? Just go with the flow emotionally. This doesn't mean letting the hormones win and becoming a complete psychotic. Instead, feel the feelings, but know that the drama you’re feeling is largely a result of increased adrenaline thanks indirectly to hormonal swings—not because things really are that dramatic and merit adult temper tantrums. The clincher symptom for this week: it’s highly likely your libido has gone on sabbatical. This, as far as we’re concerned, is perfectly natural in your condition.