good to have somewhat an indication that the baby is okay in there...
dulu, aku cam selalu anxious... okay ke tak ni... dahla pemakanan aku crap... mungkin toxic ke ape... i take panadol, clindamycin, diphenhydramine yg org kata patutnye tak jejaskan baby... but who knows rite?..... ade la perasaan tak sedap hati gak....

skang ni bila die gerak2.... cam lega je....
dulu rase poking-poking je...
skang rase cam in waves.. cam boleh rase pergerakan dari kiri ke kanan...
kira cam dpt rase lebeh lama dari 1 saat aa... feels weird...
die suka gerak time aku baring tgk TV....
aku pun suka cucuk2 die time tu.... interactive belly...

kenkadang masa aku stress buat keje... die gerak gak...
aku sebok tgh dengar critical instructions from bos-bos aku tentang what todo.... time tu la die nak buat gymnastics....grukgrakgrukgrak perut... distracting jugak...

some people gi klinik kerajaan...
org ckp aku gi klinik dr delilah tu mahal...
memang la mahal kalau ko nak bandingkan ngn free treatments...

tapi first of all, kena amek cuti nak pi klinik kerajaan...
and sehari cuti aku berharga about RM70-80.....
tak amek kira cuti rafiq.... rugi kalau die tak ikut... nak tgk ultrasound sumer... so kalau dedua dok amek cuti nak pi klinik... dah rugi RM150

pastu sebenarnye RM100+ is quite okay la for a visit
coz dpt ultrasound everytime (gi klinik tak dpt, except certain times) and treatment gynea yg berreputasi... sebab kalau nak cakap aku tak berduit, ade je duit...

takkan RM150 (campo ubat) sebulan takleh nak spare dari 2 org yg bergaji RM3000+ sorang..... sedangkan gi makan kat chillis/tgi/buat facial/beli mekap/beli tudung-kain perbagai warna/gi gym semua boleh spend that much? takkan utk baby berkira? memula aku stress jugak sebab kena kuar duit extra untuk mende yg aku tak nampak hasil yg tangiable... mende yg aku boleh pegang/guna/tatap... rase RM150 ilang camtu je...

tapi dengan adenye ultrasound time aku cek 6 weeks tu la... dr. dapat check aku ade bleeding sket.. and cecepat leh prescribe progesterone pills... kalu gi klinik kerajaan, die tak buat ultrasound except time2 yg sepatutnye.. so untuk aku, memang nasib baik sangat la aku gi jumpa dr delilah.... awal2 tu aku dah susah hati kena kuarkan RM150+..... tapi sebab dpt elakkan tragedi.... memang rase berbaloi... and bila dah set minda untuk allocate that much each for doctor's visit... okayla.. sebab dah set aside.. tak rase cam unexpected expenditure....

so for me... not having to take leave, able to see my baby each month, the security of knowing that you are in good and reliable hands.... is definately worth RM150....

but to each his/her own.... aku sebab ade bleeding tu, aku nak extra security... extra rase selamat.. tanak worry...

feels funny when he hiccups... ticklish...

my favourite pastime at 10pm (sbb rafiq dah tido, so takde layanan... hmm, kalau die tak tido pun takde layanan gak :P ... and also sebab tv takde citer best dah) is... balancing my nintendo DS or my astro remote control on top of my belly... and see the baby kick it off .. i get a kick outta watching that (a pun!)

by the way... the babe (in actual size/reality) is 1 week ahead from the tickers info...

u know the pembaris panjang (bukan yg 1 meter tu la...)... yg 30cm tu....
itu la panjang baby aku....
gile aaaah.... cam panjang gile je...

also, people keep asking about my cravings...
what cravings??!! manede masa dan effort for cravings...
i eat everything in sight..... no time for being picky....
seblum ni, sanggup tak makan if tak dapat makan ape yg aku nak...
i.e sanggup berlapar untuk meal yg sedap....
1st trimester pun, picky gak.. tak makan mende yg meloyakan..
and some stuff are just not as appetizing... eat what u can eat laa..

now, sorry la...
whats available now... i'll take it...
and i can eat everything....


who has time for cravings......

feeling these kicks lately... especially when bila aku baring on my back...
maybe he feels sempit and keeps kicking then...
and also can feel bila die nak turn.. (im imagining, turn kepala dari kiri gi kanan)... coz then tgh2 perut tu rase ketat je... and keras.....
then lembut balik....

pastu bila aku boring... nanti aku cucuk2 die suruh bangun..
"budak kecik, bangun.. im bored..." hwa hwa hwaaa.....

went for the 21 week check... (patutnye 20 weeks kot)...
to do the whole anatomy scan... tgk jantung, tengok tengkorak, tengok spine, tgk muka, tengok kidneys, tengok tulang, tengok perut... ukur sana, ukur sini...

sebelum masuk bilik dr., aku dah cucuk2 budak tu, suruh bangun... heheheh
nak tengok die gerak2 dlm tu....
before buat ultrasound, doc guna wand ape tah... nak dengar perut....
die kata bising nye, asik gerak....bergaduh ape kat dalam tu....
aku dlm hati "are you sure its not my quesy stomach?"perut aku bising gak
then heart rate 161... first time aku dgr heartbeat....


then doc nak start ultrasound...
the first image of the baby... was him lying face down, with his butt in the air... then die gerak2kan bontot... seriusly ya Allah.. buruknye gaya... aku teringat kat shin chan, tarian punggung die... lama plak tu.... tak tahan aku gelak... walaupun aku seriusly mortified/appalled... rafiq & dr pun gelak gile.. die kata "astaghfirullahalazim, tak penah tgk la baby buat camtu"... seriusly, it was so appalling.... anyways we couldn't analyze the face at first....

but everything was fine... lama membelek.. still a boy.... soket mata pun kena ukur.... to check for down... byk gile aa possibility of deformation... down syndrome, thalasemia, jantung, perut/usus kat luar, kidney, hunchback, cleft lip, dwarfism, neural tube.... cuak aku, seb baik okay je.....

mata pun boleh nampak... mata die at one point, open... nampak iris (vague la).. tapi aku tgk cam mata rafiq je....hmmmphhh...

balik rumah, rafiq cakap...."yeaah, my baby!, boleh nari sesama"... sebab rafiq pun suka buat bontot dance yg tak perlu aku describe kat sini... like father like son... menyampahnyee aku....


p/s: i got a CD with the ultrasound clips... klip pependek je... takde dance tu... :(
starting now, add-on ultrasound clip onto the CD.... hi-tech gak klinik tu... tapi still boleh bayaq cash je... get a credit card machine please!!!!