BF Diary
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June 26
7.00am: 6oz
11.00am: 7oz
2.30pm: 5oz
6.00pm: 5oz

June 27
4.00 am: 11 oz (macam nak pecah boobs ku lama tak perah)
10.00 am: 6oz
12.00 pm: 4oz
7.00 pm: 5.5oz
12.00 am: 6oz




p/s: amir minum banyak gile... we call him the milk monster.... kalu tak, sure lagi berbotol2 aku dapat kumpul... aku rase cam tgh racing ngn die.... need to stay ahead, weekend ni nak bagi in laws aku jaga sehari.. need to stock up...


Weight Diary
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Pre-pregnancy weight: 58 kg
Post Pregnancy weight: 78kg (20 kg gain)
Weight 10 days after labor: 68kg (10 kg loss, 10 kg more to go)

dari pregnancy blog... bleh jadik breastfeeding blog... among others...
spectra 3 ku dah sampai... dapat free gift storage bottles x6... okayla as a starter kit... kawan aku suh beli avent punye storage kit... and kalau aku kira cost per bottle, yg avent punye tu lagi murah dari yg no brand ni... pelik tul.. nanti kena tgk material avent.. kot2 bekas die jenis lembek ke ape...

anyways... aku dah try 2 kali... slow setting coz boobs aku tak biasa lagi ngn suction ni...biasala, avent ISIS (manual) yg aku dok guna tu very der soft one.... yang ni cam pure suction... nipple aku yg tak luka tu tak sakit pun guna spectra ni... aku rase nipple yg sakit ni, sebab memang die sakit coz luka bukan coz machine spectra ni...

neways, aku boh setting low... no rush pun kan...
lepak2 main intenet..... tau tau je dah banyak kuar... aku tak timing pulak...
syok gak.... semangat tul aku nak express susu ngn ade gadget ni...

2 kali express (7 pm and 10.30pm).... each session dapat ~5 oz ++... aku pun cuba stop kat 5oz coz storage bottle tu pun size 5 oz.... yg lelebeh, aku terus feed to the baby.. malas nak simpan ciput kat dalam bottle baru...






mungkin kah aku jadik org yg obsess pasal breastfeeding? we'll see...
i dont think so.. but main ngn gadget baru... sure is funn!!

terpaksa la aku citer sal baby drama coz aku terperuk dalam rumah je ni....

breastfeeding is a bitch....
arghhh!!!! stress tul aku...
i hate big boobs and i cannot lie... aku just nak B cup je...
and BFing makes it even big....
i hate hate hate my boobs...
i dont have extreme pain yet... i know BFing is painful..
memang sakit... asik2 keras sebab penuh ngn susu...
nak tido takleh, sebab nak kena bgn utk mengepam.. dahla manual
sebelah nipple dah berdarah sket..
(apparently online it says, blood in breast milk is okay, damn aku perah semalam aku buang coz ingat takleh)
but its pain i can manage..... (hopefully this is the pain people are talking bout.. and no more)


tapi thinking its the best food for the baby...
and the fact that its free....
(i dont really buy into the.. breastfeeding makes you thin ...."fact"...)
pastu fikir long term... die sehat, takde senang kena penyakit cam papa die (heheh)
so aku bertekad gakla meneruskan perjuangan ini...
at least till dia 6 mths....
aku invest on electric breastpump lah....
senang je nak jual balik aku rase.... coz ade demand.... tgk kat forum2...
plus the baby likes breast milk... aku try gak sekali bagi formula...
asik cam muntah balik je... stool pun cam tak suci....


tapi aku tgk kat forum.. diorang hardcore gegila express susu...
mengalahkan lembu... siap beli freezer baru nak simpan susu...
ni aku boh gamba2 depa..... gila lah.....





neways.. ni aku, for today.... starting at 12 midnite aa punye expression...
tu pun, amir dah minum about same amount shown here....

aku guna botol nak feed the milk... kira aku express untuk feed, bukan simpan for future..
(ni bila dah banyak susu, boleh la buat).. okla ni for a 1 weekold mother...
and manual pumping and stressed-out bout big leaking boobs mother....
amir pulak minum macam monster (sungguh rakus expression die bila dpt susu)...
dah triple chin aku tengok...


aku beli spectra 3... hopefully kesabaran aku tak tercabar....

the baby is outtttt.....

date: 17 june 2008 @ 19:18pm (combination my birthday & rafiq 10 & 7)
gender: boy (obviously)....
weight: 3.44 kilos (berat nyeerr)
length : 50.5 cm (gile la... 1/2 meter... but normal aa tu)
delivery: normal with epidural and vaccum (pain-a-phobic, and tak fit to push)
cuteness level: 10!! (my biased judgement)...
similarity to parents: 80% me (hence the biased judgement)
health: none apparent (no jaundice to date)
food of choice: fresh boobs juice / squeezed boobs juice (formula gives such a lot, smelly, dark poopies....i've tried it, once.....)
shoutout: thank you to my dear husband who was so supportive and encouraging... could NOT have done it without you....(and the epi and vaccum, apparently... feel like such a failure...)

the ticker has spoken.. again... gile right on the money..!


the "runs"? meaning diarheaa??
i was just complaining to rafiq.... i can only poop diarheaa-ially...
i guess there is no space for solid poop to waltz its way out of my body...


and i am fully engaged... locked and loaded...
aku rase cam perasaan lebam je bawah tu...
the doc gave me 1 week (5 days) MC this week....
and today, i'm still at work... just wanna tie up some loose ends...
maybe if finish... tomorrow aku nak ber-MC till jumaat...
(actually guna MC 3 hari je, selasa till khamis... coz jumaat i already applied for in-lieu leave - befday agung)....


and next week, 16th.. aku nak start amek maternity leave...
malas aa nak berjalan2 dengan perasaan vagina yang beaten and bruised....
not to mention i can only get 3-4 hours of sleep every night....
why does it hurt even more at night? i feel like contraction selalu time malam...
maybe coz its sunyi and sepi and i can concentrate more on the pain....
or contraction likes to occur while laying down...
i know the baby looooooves to kick while im laying down...


dr suruh aku keep fetal kick chart....
from 9 am till 5 pm.... kira kicking/turning/grazing motion of the baby..
kalau cukup 10.... catat time kul berapa.. and takyah count....
kalau tak cukup, pi spital....


sunday - i woke up at 9.15 ..... 9.35 already ten movements...
i told you he likes to kick while im laying down... or trying to sleep...

monday - 9.30 also already more than ten.... (counted the ones yg aku perasaan, too busy trying to multitask.. breakfast and bace work email)....

what if from 9.30 am till 8 am next morning no movement...? pelik la aku cara pengiraan ni... they should say ensure 2-3 kicks every hour.... or every 2 hours....


p/s: the cot is already assembled.... come out la already.... tolong kuar masa weekdays yer.... weekend ade extra charges pulak...

it's JUNE!!!!!...

huh cant wait.... it's like knowing something will happen..
and anticipating is torture!!!..

but I've heard 1st time mom can take up to 42 weeks... baru deliver...
hmmm lambatnyee..... that might push it into July!!.....

but I dont see any signs of labor...
no contraction, no back pain, no engagement...
i feel fine.... i feel great .... i feel better than last month infact.... i feel more energetic.... (maybe aku dah terbiasa with all these inconvinience of being heavy and having to pee all the time... that i just dont sweat it anymore)....


so looks kinda unlikely to have an early birth.. even if the baby is so fatty and chubby..... i dunno.... i'm praying for a miracle... aku dah takde mood nak buat kerja....

and he is kicking up a storm in there.... im not surprised if im black and blue inside... sape la cakap movement baby akan makin sikit sebab tak cukup ruang.... maybe aku tinggi, banyak lagi ruang die nak pusing sana sinih.... setiap hari rafiq cakap... "keluarla... keluarlaa... keluarla......"