Addicted to tudung hamidah.. AND tetiba kali ni aku gi sooo freaking many new choices of patterns and fabric... tapi limitkan to 2-3 only with each gaji... kali nih.. menjalar ke arah kaler turqouise..



too many choices... so little money.. and so little outfit to match with (therefore must buy new outfits too hahah)

Gile kete

Overnite at hospital again. Seb baik ada insurans.

Akhirnye cam-whoring with Vatanai Maruyama.... (watashi no sensei no namae mo maruyama desu)
Gamba ni... pakai mmg utk bergamba... pakai seblum masuk keter...
pastu boleh plak aku lupa cara nak buat ruck nih hahah.. so aku lupa nak letak fabric bawah kaki and bum....
sungguh la amaturrr.... lagipun rafiq dah tutup semua kipas siap2 nak masuk keter.. so aku takde masa nak recall right way of wearing.... tapi aku post gak gamba sbb  cuaca lawa and warna lawa..
disclaimer- this is wrong way of wearing, baby boleh jatuh...





tapi lepas gi putrajaya.. baru teringat camne nak letak fabric bawah kaki... tu pun tak pakai kemas2.. coz its hottt!!   but even without spreading fabric properly, so comfy lah!... even more comfier than SSC .. coz SSC ade jugak part yg dig your body.... aku dah berangan nak wrapping masa travel nanti... nak dukung lelama berbaloi gakla wrapping...





pastu singgah babywearing mini meet... cineleisure laksa ah cheng..
tema harini .. pinky/purple hhahaha.. aku lak try all RS.. jumpsac best!... must get one for next baby... (no aku tak pregnant... tapi survey utk next baby lah.. pastu ngada plak nak survey pink konon2 cam dapat girl la nanti hahahah)
btw aku fwcc, coz ini je yg aku konfident nak pakai kat parking lot hahah







Comfy Joey RS




Jumpsac RS

Nice advice from farra here. I copy paste her conclusion (which I agree 100%, I also highlight stuff in green on which I really really agree):

Persevere

Breastfeeding isn't as easy as it may seem. Every problem must have its causing roots. Only the mother (with help if needed and seriously seeked) can identify the problem and its source, and then try to correct the problem by ANY means possible to her.

Knowledge and support is power. I did not come this far on my own. I seeked information from various useful sites. I joined breastfeeding mother support forum to learn from other breastfeeding mothers. I befriend breastfeeding mothers and even lactation counsellors. These have helped me a LOT during my breastfeeding journey.

What I have learned from my experience and many other breastfeeding mothers is that perseverence and faith and a lot of prayers can help get you there. And seek for help when you need it, seek help from professionals, and do the follow up with them constantly. The Internet is a vast source of information, Google them up.

I truly believe that a baby should never be blamed for whatever problems that may arise during one's breastfeeding journey. Each baby is an individual and has his/her own preference, just like us adults. If we are learning, so are babies. As we learn to breastfeed, let our babies learn to latch. Have patience.

With God's willing, only the mother has all the power within her, to decide what is best for her baby. If she gives up without trying hard enough, then she has given up for her baby. If one doesn't try hard enough, one will never know if she will ever succeed.

Persevere and have faith.

rafiq: skang amir minum banyak susu
me: ooo
rafiq: habis susu semua die minum
me: mm
rafiq: by pukul 4 dah habis semua susu die
me: what are u trying to say
rafiq: mungkin kena produce more milk..
me: ko produce la

already giving 16 oz... 4 bottles of 4 oz... 7 am till 6 pm....
what do you guys think... enuff or not...?
makan mmg makan.. tapi air die nak susu.. air kosong tak mau
org nursery tu cakap...

semalam siap ade org ckp... are you not producing enough milk... sian amir takut terencat nanti... tak cukup susu.... hmm.....

tapi susu yg aku pam smalam dah naik balik... sebab dah period.. (jerawat pun dah surut, kulit pun kurang oily, nafsu makan pun kurang sket, sungguh gile hormon imbalance ni).... lepas ni aku bagi la 20oz...

tapi seriusly, 15-16 oz tak cukup ke...?

pressure betul.....

anyways... happy 20 months of fully breastfeeding....

ku beli kan amir kasut buaya kaler pink...
crocs ori amir yg kaler kuning yg dibeli masa sale, soo soo big, umur 5-6 tahun baru leh guna kot.... so aku beli la satu kasut buaya.... sebab asik dok bagi die jalan in socks je... susah nak on-off kasut.... and senang terbukak/dibukak oleh amir.. etc... kasut clarks pun sempat hilang kat CDG airport.... sabau jelah!!

anyway kriteria utama semestinye selesa... so kena la raba2 gak kasut2 buaya ni.. biji-biji tapak kaki tu cam sakit/tajam je, so kena pilih yg tak sakit... pastu shell kasut ade yg terlalu berat.. ade yg keras sgt.. yg okay and 99% perfect was this one... 1% was due to color... RM10.. mmg berbaloi2 sebab dlm rumah pon amir nak pakai kasut ni hahahaha...







docs, do u see anything wrong with this pic..?

something is eating me..
which is why i cant stop eating...

wonder what it is...

maybe hormones...

will have naik jerawat gile2, constipation even with probiotic...and the urge to eat eat eat... sungguh hormon ku tak stabil.... rase cam nak gi hormon terapi ke whatever bagi balance balik...

waaa kagum akhirnye dapat beronggeng ngn twin cousins aku...
and sungguh tak dirancang...
dapatla amir ngn gabby berplaydate/sosial.

for comparison.... ni dulu, masa kami masih ade masa and duit nak bermekap..and suka buat keje tah pape...

ni gaya lenggang kangkung takde baby (kantoi kakila ko pakai tudung sama hahah)





lepas dah ade anak.. gini la ... lens takde... tudun shortcut hahahha mekap takde.. ku terasa diriku sungguh buruk!! haha....lantakla...

p/s:hanim, I lent her your AP... :)... hope thats okay..

korang jangan tertipu...
susu aku skarang, USUALLY tak sebanyak yg previous post punye gamba
aku suka la nak amek gamba bila susu jadik lebeh, post gamba achievement...
gamab2 susu paras normal, aku tak rajin nak post..
tapi ni la usually paras susu normal skarang.. pam 2 kali sehari...
samada 2 kali kat opis...
or cam smalam, pam sekali kat opis...ngelat nak pam lagi petang
pastu malam seblum tido pam lagi...)

ni gamba susu smalam...


ni gamba susu kalau terdpt extra....2x pam...



ni plak gamba kenapa aku menyampah nak pam...
setiap kali balik opis, ni yg menanti aku dalam sink...



2 big bottles tu... sebab aku store chilled EBM dlm botol beso..
4 botol kecik tu.... coz aku bagi 4 botol size 4-5oz kat nursery..
aku tak caya diorang basuh botol...
if not, boleh bagi 2 botol beso yg simpan EBM ngn 1 botol susu je..
ni beli masuk botol, pumping spares...
kalau aku pam kat umah, byk lagi aku kena basuh..
pastu nak masak, pun nak kena basuh periuk, kuali, pinggan etc...

sooo... ni baru breastfeed punye mom botol yg kena basuh...
kalau yg botol feeding camne aa..?
tapi mungkin formula feed.. boleh just bagi 1 botol susu je kat nursery & 1 tin formula..
susu formula senang sket kot nak basuh compared to EBM...
asikla lemak/minyak melekat kat botol....
campo la BPA-free botol... lagi la susah nak ilang lemak2 tu.. kena berus cecukup..

ni pulak gamba camwhore tudung hamidah... hahah aku decide nak fokus jual beg..
tudung ni pospone dulu.. but I love it!

sebelum amir lahir... aku dah decide to do this, this, this, this, ...
let me list these things:


1. sleep-train... he needs to learn to sleep on his own
2. sleep away from us, in his cot in his own room
3. no excessive carrying... kang nak berdukung jek
4. no buai.. nanti takleh tido tanpa buai, camne nak gi jalan..
5. come of age, naughty je babab...
6. etc lah....


basically, totally un-AP (attachment parenting)
coz if u knew me... I have becomed hardened by life,
was a phase aku rase sungguh dipergunakan bila aku naive and selfless..
so when I turned into an adult...
I am determined to be selfish.. !! Usaha tu... perlu fikirkan diri sendiri dulu...
now, it comes like 2nd nature to be selfish ngahahaha...


anyways... I was determined that the baby, will not get the best of me.. aku takkan dipijak..
He will be under my rule... I need sleep, I need rest... basically me being selfish...
you go sleep in you room.... you learn to sleep, tak kuasa nak dodoi dodoi 3-4 jam..
the thought of babywearing, co-sleeping and buai-ing ..sungguhla nyusahkan hidup..
p/s: If I had known breastfeeding was so freaking hard, maybe aku plan utk tak BF kot..
tapi masa ni tatau pun BF tu nyusahkan hidup aku...



and the baby comes...
and sungguh la jadik opposite of what I had planned to be....
and I dont know why....
somehow tetiba terjadik bf-ing, bw-ing, co-sleeping, buai-ing mom...
and at that time also dunno the concept of AP....
somehow doing all these things feels right....


I am not saying amir ni tak ngada, manja, independent, etc...
sungguh la ngada, manja and nak berkepit ngn aku...
sejak leh recognize face tak penah tido tanpa aku (except 1 night masa die gi kedah and aku pun gi tgk startrek midnight)
and I dunno how he is gonna turn out...
sometimes bila die ngada-ngada.. tantrummy.... ade gak rase .. ini ke product of AP..? if so, nyesal aku...
tapi macamla budak yg tak raised AP.. takkan throw tantrum and ngada2....
sama je kot.... I dunno... I really dont...



yang penting... to deny a baby from his mother's love, protection and care just feels wrong...
to force sleep training -cry it out method, to force into a separate room, to deny carrying a baby sedangkan die nangis2 nak diangkat and feel secure...
is JUST WRONG...... period.


but I am still selfish...
kalau ikut aku la, aku prefer to sleep separately... and to not BF..
kalau amir boleh and wants to sleep away.. boleh tido away from me with his grandparents... sesungguhnya I WELCOME it !! please take him.. 2-3 hari pon boleh..
but now amir wants co-sleep, amir wants to sleep with me....
what is best for you, is not what is best for baby....



but some form of dicipline will be required for this "terrible-two" year to come.
not sure what yet... i need a book.

P/S: This post was inspired by this entry:
http://glam-mama-diaries.blogspot.com/2010/02/co-sleeping-my-history-and-how-it.html

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too easy meh

as I was searching for the mini sudu for our office pantry creamer..
terngiang ngiang zaman kena buat susu formula utk adik aku yg 2 last tu...
bila bukak tin susu baru.. mengagau gagau carik scoop......
skang, aku tau frisogold boh scoop die lekat kat tudung tin....

point is... tak merasa pengalaman nak buat susu formula...
the heating up air... sejukkan susu kalau telebih panas..
goncang goncang...feed using botol
(also, lama gile kitorang tak feed guna botol for EBM.. kat nursery je kot)
pastu travelling with powder formula... termos..
weird la pulak tak buat semua tu skarang...
coz that was a big part of raising a baby for me...


seriusly... I have no clue watsoever about formula...
ape yg bagus, tak bagus, mahal, sembelit, muntah, dha, immunoglobin, etc...
imtotallyclueless...... not sure if its a good thing or bad thing...

lentok on da boobs sambil tgk tv..

ni yang aku tensen ni..

Update susu... semalam dpt extra.. suka!! 2 kali pump at work..


ni pulak kenapa I dont stop breastfeeding ... nak kena jaga gigi amir..
gigi die genetically cepat rosak.. cam gigi aku.. (yes, it is genetic)
aku gosok gigi bagai nak rak, pun lagi cepat rosak dari rafiq yg only brush once a day... kalau dia brush pun 30 saat macam mandi kerbau punye style.. but still gigi better shape than mine... life is unfair.. I deal with it... no issues...


oh and I received my BRTC BB cream... excitedness!


ni sanaa, suruh aku jadik fotografer die pakai tudung sri munawwarah... (which is on sale now)... aku pakai tudung ni, kitorang tuka2 tudung kat tandas... seriusly I am fugly wearing munawwarah... buruk gile... which is bagus gak... sebab MAHAL GILE tudung munawwarah nih....

permohonan nak jual tudung anggerik/hamidah/dubai dah lulus... bagitau sket tudung camne yang korang suka... test market.... kalau ikut aku, tudung takyah gosok je aku beli..

Tudung Hamidah Nipis (THN)
Takde awning .... designed utk dipakai bersama anak tudung..
tapi I prefer to wear just like that...
ikut design, see-thru tudung ni tak obvious sangat
http://www.koleksitudung.com/v3/category.php?id_category=12

Tudung HamidahTebal No Awning
Takde awning, tak see-thru cam THN
http://www.koleksitudung.com/v3/category.php?id_category=13

Tudung Hamidah Tebal Berawning
Ade awning, kain tak see-thru
http://www.koleksitudung.com/v3/category.php?id_category=8

aku tau hangpa semua teruja.... jangan pi beli dulu  noh.. tunggu aku  jual baru beli... hahahha

tiru sanaa.. nak letak followers... jemput follow2..
tapi aku takdek hadiah....hahah
ade sesuatu for giveaway... tapi simpan for future...

malas nak hos gamba,resize etc etc..
lagipun terlupa bawak kamera best..
so hanye gamba kamera henfon jek...

tapi syok betul nursing...
terus kong dalam flight on the way.. and on the way back...
also in the van trip on the way and on the way back..
sebab if die active, memang pengsan nak kejar layan

taktau camne nak survive without nursing..
my advantage is nearing expiration date.. uwaahh
also no needs for termos, botol, susu tepung, scooping2...cuci cucian sana sini..
shit... im too lazy for formula... renyahss!!

also how to survive without babywearing...
tak kuasa betul nak heret stroller kat jalanan...

all good things must come to an end..... takpe.. aku akan enjoy till expiry date

 

koleksi tudung pemalas ku.. dah ade 6.. cukup bekalan nak bermalas-malasan semingguan..

seriusly.. senang gile travel... iron..? no need..... basuh sidai kat dlm hotel pun sempat kering kot overnight..

aku ingat nak jadik reseller.... ade sape berminat nakbeli tak kalau aku jual..? hahahah 

silap2 aku sapu semua.... aku still takde yg kaler purple, or blue.. or red... 

pastu ade 3 yg ade unsur2 animal printy ... sungguh terrase liar.. rawwrrrr!